You’re Waiting…
You’re waiting for a train, a train that will take you far away. You know where you hope this train will take you, but you don’t know for sure.
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Christmas just passed, what’s the point of snow now? *packs snow into ball* ahh I see.
The Road
The Road was such a shitty movie, I won’t let mine be like that. The way I love to live is also the same way I love to drive, go quick and never stop. If the light turns red, I’m making a right turn and re-routing that bitch asap.
The rules of traffic are much like any other set of rules in which they were created for a general encompassing “situation”. I say this because they’re tons of “non-applicable” situations to each and every set of rules. If its 4 in the morning with not a single car in sight, why would should I still follow the speed limit? If you’re in your early 20′s with the curiosity to see what’s behind every door and have the luxury to do so, why not pursue your interests? Even if they turn out to only be of the moment?
Enjoy the road you take to getting “there”, wherever “there” is for YOU. But once you’ve arrived, make sure you can look back and LOVE the journey.
Lookin At The Present…
In between remembering who I was and figuring out who I am… the state I’m currently at. No, not because I’m tipsy at 6am on Christmas Eve/Christmas Day… but only because I feel my old self unraveling but I’m not hesitating to let it go. And in return, I’m allowing something different… yet very familiar take over. 2012. I’ve never been more curious or have I ever anticipated a new year.
Lost Ones
Photo Will. A name you might’ve heard if you’re tuned into the Toronto scene or through Drake’s shout out on his “I’m Still Fly” remix. Short story long, Will is putting together a team of photographers, videographers, graphic designers, post production personnel etc., all with the goal of creating a young and self-sufficient unit that can handle big time media gigs but also pound out work consistently.
I’m forever grateful for the situation and opportunity… cause this is something I feel like my life has been leading up to… however cliche that may sound. I owe so much to this man and yet he hasn’t done much for me yet, nor have we spoken much. Time… all that we and I lack… every night I pray for opportunity and now that it has revealed itself I hope that I never forfeit this opportunity over some stupid reason or over fear/laziness (some of the strongest traits I believe I have).
I’ve felt lost my whole life, I’m hoping this is the defining factor.
Conversation over Rozay
I had about 4 hours of sleep, worked a full day, then sped downtown to shoot the Rick Ross concert. Then I ended up coming home around 2am, and started editing my photos from the concert. During this time, me and my good friend Carmen struck up conversation on MSN and one of the things that came up was, how so many things can change within a year. I joked around and said that we both have changed… but pondering about it some more I realized neither of us have really changed, but more so it was the environment we are in that has changed.
So my final thought is this… we don’t really change over time necessarily, the core of us remains the same I mean. The best analogy I can think of at 5am right now is that it’s similar to actors on a movie set. When watching the filming behind-the-scenes, the actors stay in their position and role, but the crew will change the set around them (furniture, rooms, doors, etc.) over and over depending on the scene. Make sense? I hope so. Which leads to the next thought… life is a movie, grab some fucking popcorn lol.
Triangle Offense… The Only Way I Make Sense of it All…
And this is how it ALL makes sense… I didn’t know how it would all work out myself but it’s become so clear to me lately. I’ve always wanted and looked for an IN, a way to penetrate the music game and make myself relevant; from the struggle raps I spit in highschool/university, to my brief stint as a recording/mix engineer, and lastly now as a blogger and photographer. To be fair, the knowledge and confidence I’ve gained from studying engineering is irreplaceable, and is of such important use to me on a regular basis.
Let’s get back on topic of the photo… a live Joe Budden concert I shot while he was in Toronto (pretty poorly shot photo but w.e), but it was picked up by the legendary Hip-Hop blogsite, 2dopeboyz. Now don’t get me wrong at all, I know it’s not really a big deal they did a quick Google Image search and stumbled upon my Joey photo, but it re-affirms the clarity I’ve had for awhile now. My clarity being that the only way I can fuse everything together (love for music + blogging + photography) is to create original content/media, whether photo or video, for an urban outlet.
I use to struggle to explain how I wanted to steer photography towards helping me get a career music related, but that was when I honestly had no clue myself how to make that happen. Now that everything’s figured out, time to actually work hard and make sure I learn everything I need to lol.
The New City Hall
I’ve been in a slump. I feel like I’m transitioning into a transition phase, from being a university graduate to being a-soon-to-be productive member of society, and somehow I’m right in between scrambling to find a foothold. The days go by but I can’t attach them to significant enough events that are worthy of looking back on, which is something that really irks me.
How this relates to going skating? Well this night simply seemed and felt like fresh air to me, something other than my regular schedule of spending half my day scratching my head confused at life, and the other half spent grinding it out on my various hustles. *shrug*
As a sidenote, I love the new downtown Mississauga city hall and the expansions they’ve made to the ice rink and the outdoor concert theatre. It’s definitely a great time to be a young soul in our city right now.
Chaos Theory
I hope this is the photo shoot we look back on and say “yeah… that’s when it started for us”.